This past few days, I've been keeping silent. Not because my life becomes boring since Mr. K went to NYC but because I have some questions in mind, which I myself don't know how to answer. It's just that why other people have the life that I've always wanted. Yeah sure you can't have everything.. but geee.. why is it that even one of those, I still don't have. Those things that I've been dreaming for so so so long... those things that money can't buy.. simple things yet unreachable.
And today after work when I reached home, as I opened my dresser drawer, I noticed a heart shaped box. I suddenly remember, inside that cute pinkish colored box was a precious watch. A birthday gift from someone so dear to me. Since when did I stopped wearing it? I guess a few months ago and my reason for keeping it there was to preserve it and use only for special dates. But why is it so?
Then it came to me, that everyday should be special and live life everyday as if it was the last. I should look and feel glamorous each day as I've always wanted. Then maybe I will forget this silly questions in mind and start appreciating what I have. Not live with other people's lives.
Though sometimes I don't know where I am heading. Time flies so fast for me. It was like yesterday when I first came to Singapore. Full of dreams and new hope. But today, almost two years after, I'm standing in the same spot where I started. I feel like am walking again in darkness. Floating in mid air. All alone, as if the whole world freezes and I am caught in between...hmmm....
Life is not so bad as it seems... I just have to try harder...
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